Total: 490 kcals
The smell of food makes me nauseous. The thought of eating makes me gag. But I have to eat, because I have to take all of my medicine and it makes me so sick if I don’t eat first. So I take a pill and wash it down with soup, then close my eyes and wait for the dizziness to stop. Open my eyes, throw another pill in, sip more soup, and watch as everything spins again. I go back to the doctor tomorrow, and he’s going to test my iron, calcium, protein, etc levels to make sure everything’s good and I don’t break myself again. All I want is for him to weigh me. But he won’t. My stupid scale is broken and I have no idea how much I weigh. I’ve been working out almost every day and restricting calories to 500-700 at most since the last time I weighed myself, and I’m terrified. I need a new scale but can’t buy one because I’m broke until my next paycheck after paying the most recent medical bills. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I just want to stop eating…
Total kcals: 470
