February 2012
178 posts
“I guess the first step to losing yourself in your disease is the idealization of...”
– Unknown (via sickly-thin)
I just had to listen to my friend brag about how perfect her body is and complain about how she couldn’t choose between the boys who are all obsessed with her. I can’t handle this. Boys are sickened by me, I’m sickened by me. Excuse me while I retreat to my room and take pills to force myself to sleep so I don’t have to deal with the sad reality that is my life for a while.
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I am not supposed to weigh this much...
I want to go purge so badly but I purged last night…I hate myself so fucking much.
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I feel like shit.
I’ve only eaten like 500 calories but I feel like complete shit. I only had like 380 yesterday, but I still made myself purge at the end of the night. I hate this so fucking much. No matter what I do, it’s not enough. The people I want to notice me and treat me like I mean something to them still fucking ignore me. I hate my life so fucking much and nothing I do is making it any...
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I hate everything about myself. I've been alone...
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I have so much homework, but if I don't sleep, I...
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Food log: 1/8/12
Medium sized pear: 100 kcals
Tea: 0 kcals
Larabar: 190 kcals
Tea, water, water, tea: 0 kcals
Soup w/ sea salt crunchies: 200 kcals
Tea, water, water, water, tea: 0 kcals
Total: 490 kcals
